goodbye fam

ayy. OK.. pull up out the back and wave as we look at that dont do crack man that shit is wack keep it going and I'm gonna have to kick a lil pump in the nutsack. driving away after ten mins so we don't have to see ur face no more I'm done with all the arguing so I'm just gonna pack my shit and leave. I don't know where im gonna go but I'm for sure not ever coming here again I'm loosing my self control already outta my self esteem. so if u wanna keep having a go at me gonna slit ur motherfucking throat in ur sleep. I'm sorry for all the mistakes I made I honestly couldn't care less though. if suicide is painless then why did this rope leave a mark around my throathole. smoking durrys don't help me at all pot only makes me happy for a night in my life I'm sick to death of always smoking but it makes me happy so FUCK OFF!!! u say I need to grow up a bit and stop solking bout thus shit but the evidence of me not gonna grow are the holes that I punch I'm the walls. it ain't my fualt I'm like this it ain't urs either but u still have a go at me because I ignored all my teachers they should've taught me shit that matters in life not just handed me booklets I never learnt my maths because I gave up felt like it was bullshit. I'm sorry for myself I'm sorry for u aswell. I'm sorry for everything but I still think. oh well. its OK I understand that u don't give a fuck because respect goes I'm both way and yet I'm still a fuckup I get it. when sick as a dog and ask for medicine u say no so I ask for food to eat tonight and the answers still the same oh well. that's parents for u not sure if there all the same but this is my family so I hope u enjoy ur day. I hope when I turn my back and leave for goodbu can't sleep because ur so upset I hope u kill urself because u realise ur nothing but a useless Bitch. I hope my siblings grow up and become little versions of me so u understand its not me. its ur fucking parenting.