I cant handle not being able to hear your voice, i miss you so much, i remember holding you and it hurts to feel your absence, it hurts to only feel you in my thoughts, since i cant hold you here nor there, i have freedom to hold you in my thoughts, right next to where you so scared to be, inside my heart, my heart gurl, and if i got to hurt cause you scared, then ima be right here whispering in your ear, it's okay boo, you safe here, no matter what you fear ima keep you safe, im scared too. I know just how you feel now, I'm scared you left me to hurt all by myself, so im going crazy, heart beats impatiently, I'm so damn busy, sitting by this phone waiting, hoping it's you then checking, each time it's vibrating, It's not you so I'm now more nervous, gurl I'm so crazily shaking, I keep pulling the pedals from the flowers, she loves me, she loves me not for sure, shes beautiful, she's crazy, but her crazy's Beautiful to me!!! And im thinking, she loves me not for sure, she hates me, she's afraid to let go, she's so afraid to love meeeee! I won't hurt you, I won't rush you, I won't leave you, don't wanna lose you lady, She's beautiful, crazy, but her crazy's Beautiful to me... Without you, my dreams already breaking, heart's unsafely breaking, afraid I won't see you baby, so afraid to dream, nightmares invading me, your absence awakens me, At night I can't sleep because your hurting, phases me. and gurl you drive me crazy, so I place you inside of me, making you my favorite thing, baby you're my daydream. She's beautiful, crazy, So Amazing & her Crazy is Beautiful to meeee,... baby, just take me, or at least call or text me saying, that you're okay please, when we're in different places B, my soul de-faces me, my weakened spirit continuously praying, for you and me and my daydream, that's you and me baby, and my daydream's afraid to see, such a great thing, you havent talked to me, you won't say a thing, I'm so lonely lately, you don't want me's a daily thing, indicating, your crazy, for hating me, ,you're my friendship relating, my daydream's wasting me, overlooking God's grace in me's, her gift and God gave her me, she's scared and afraid to be, so loved by the ways of me, her times spent hating me, but baby that's the way you treat me lately, and I done forgave you, but you ain't forgave me, my question's why's your pain feel so graving, why's your love fading, babygurl why don't cha wake me, my only mistakes are praising thee, and God's the Maker of my daydream, and in her He planted Faith's seed, and he made her for me, and she's crazy, beautiful, she's so damn beautiful, she's crazy, but her crazy's beautiful to me!!!! love you Mel