"Unnatural High"

I cant help but meddle till this situations settled i feel tranquility stand still reach for it but theres just a pain pill a bit of this a bit of that drown your tears in nothingness until you carve your heart hollow that's a hard pill to swallow makes you down the whole bottle till you're flyin full throttle geeked and spaced till my walks a fools waddle then i hit the bottle gimme another shot pour me a drink what else have you got I dont need to think I think enough for both of us so you can stop I'm selfless like that dont call the generosity cops I cant help my compulsions leave me helpless to stop sometimes I get lost inside my own mind trying to find directions to think flush reality down the sink damn I'm stick in my own skin again pained free from adrenaline staying on a high mission too impatient to try fishing so my methods just as little more risky a little more frisky till you all say tsk tsk tsk say tsk tsk tsk tsk this reflections been hitting me hard switching sections comparing alarms it seems the one on the first side was violent and sending me bad vibes the second is just silent help me wanna stay alive hop I'n yo ride so you can hide pure adrenaline until you die get sky high rush the waters over now you just comply and give it the last eye glancing and dancing feelin kinda fancy now but do I have a handle cause I feel I've been dismantled somehow Gods probably having a cow. or maybe this is my destiny somehow