messed neglected advice

yo I just wanna make it without the heart breaking, I start shaken when I imagine life without this connection to you , after all we been through my whole me was all about you, but lately I have been feeling like a mess to much stress to much tess and I just cant seem to impress , she s always depressed and treating me me much less than my worth.cuz of her own insecurities and karmatic debt, her mind is set that I'm just shady as fuck, makes it hard to fuck or even make that buck I need some luck or a prayer to be honoured cuz if shit dont happen then it will surely be a goner, with no chance of recovery I cant have her smother me or I will turn into the other me and wonder where my lover be, and why she couldnt just take my advice and see that abcents really did bring us closer, than doubt and expectation ever was suposta she means the most ta me but must set me free in order to see it's just what we need ! or we will die out cuz we just let it bleed.