been dead on the inside looking for a way out in to the fresh air my spirit is at its weakest and has it's most fears so far the past 5 years all been bad according to her I'm not a good dad I disagree I haven't been the best yes I'll get that right off my chest but I been a good dad to my kids show em attention buy em necessities just not as much as their mom has so she slick gets my ass in a mood crude to rude just to tell me I ain't worth being alive holy shit I really deserve that shit ya right I forgot how cold she is she's colder than Alaska in the winter every fight she always been the winner some how she finds a way to always defend her while I get pissed about all she keeps up with that I cant remember