Terry's song

yeah you mean a lot me I'm not who I ought to be and honestly I'm sorry when your not here I'm so melancholy it hurts that your gone remember the flowers you picked in front of the lawn I'm miss you so much it's like a piece of me is gone I wish I would have been better I wish I could send you a letter to heaven but I can't so I go into depression I wish I could find the fucker who killed you because his life is overdue and I got to say I miss you I'm so done my life is blue I've been tempted to put gun to my head and end it all this pain in my life cuts my heart it's like a knife its emotional unstoppable watchable corruptable my life is so vertical I wish it was changeable and fuck it there's nothing I can do I just don't have a damn clue I just wish there was a way through if you can hear me I'm so sorry I've let you down and honestly I'm falling crawling on the ground take my heart God and deliver me now it fucking hurts when I go visit you I'm looking down my sadness grew I wish I could just drown I still remember your favorite things in my mind they just cling there's a hole in my heart its gaping evil taking over its rapeing my life is done it's never fun it's like satan's won I hate myself take the gun then it's done I can't get away I can't run my mind chases me I can't escape thee it's like I'm running through a tree impossible unsolvable my life is a sad movie unwatchable I wish I could smile I wish I could laugh it hurts every time I look at your photograph I can't sleep I can't eat sometimes I can't help but weep I wish you were here I can't stand you not being near and I wish I could change but im held back by chains my time is finished my life diminished my soul so scared its skittish so I'm ready to go I have nothing to sho for my life is cold like snow I can't let my heart grow so I welcome my crow I'm leaving the world and headed to the underworld its terrible but I can't lie life isn't all apple pies or beautifull like daisies so I drown myself In bailey's so good bye forever I probably won't see you again never