help

I hear voices in my head like if something is telling me something but I know why it's the fact that I hack but I told myself to stop it's not right for the both of us. I remember my father tought me how to use computers but for good thing but now look what I use it for it dumb but I'm numb my mind hurts that fact I'm broken and froze but I cant give up now it five now. the hack is bs and it keeps hurting me to know that I'm broken i did bad things but I pray to know that I'm sorry my heart mind and soul is numb parents gone family gone girlfriend gone son gone I got nothing left but I won't give up that easy I'm gonna be famous to help my fam and homeless but it's not gonna be easy but I'm gonna go and change.