Lost Responsibility

this is completely unfiltered, raw emotion and my actual voice, sorry it cracks but its an emotional subject for me im staring into the darkness but all i can see is you surrounded by reminders of the shit that weve been through strugling to make it day by day was all that we could do but i was always happy as long as i was standing next to you i wish i could hit u up and make make truce when im stuck in this mood but ill nvr forgive you for wat u did to my baby, thats the truth but i shouldnt have been surprised cuz it was ur decision too but u decided to give our baby to god before its youth one moment we were expecting and the next it was untrue u never even gave me a chance to try and sway ur veiws to tell u that this baby would be a blessing and not a noose but u already made your choice and u had chose to lose when i was at work u went to the clinic to make ur move and u didnt tell me the truth, u decided to keep a ruse u had kept thinking that we were expecting soon until one day u could no longer hide the lies inside, u watched me lay there on the ground crying why, ur eyes were dry i wouldve understood or at least i wouldve tried but now my pride was fried as u stood there with wide eyes but my love for u had died that day when u tried to sigh away the awkward situation that was a creation u had made all the love had gone away, replaced with despise and hate, and still u wonder why i made the choice to go and walk away