Listen to your heart

"Listen to your heart" I made promises I couldn't keep Left you alone at home in the sheets while I ran the streets. You were my queen pushed away with no clearity of why or what I was putting you through at the time. And I wish just this onnce I could control the hands and rewind back in your arms again; eye to eye, your beautiful brown iris' fell the spark when we kiss but we know this will never happen! She's happy with another man so I try to move on but she left a mark I can't wash off, perminately on my heart like a curse! I try to spread my love and all are effected like the era of a new drug! I'm hopeless, living the life of a thug, Emotions packed in this bullet I'm aiming my love! I drop to my knees after I squeeze, took the heart from what wasn't meant to be! Could it be my destiny?! All the wicked shit I see to live a life of a broken mans dreams?! Will I change!? Will I achieve?! I reach and reach and come arms length short, I'm my own support! "Listen to your heart" But it spoke to soon, had emotions deep defying, bright; like a midnight moon! Slowly dying in time similar to star molicules , crumbled to dust nothing but ashes swirling in the gust! What we lust isn't a must Temptation turns dark and consumes your soul. We must not lose control! Stay strong and let love unfold itself, The weak seek, get heart broken and then mistreat!, now do you miss me? Your words Were a direct hit, mentally strung out, now Im affected, physically wreck less when I swig this remmy, I'm tempted, to pull out and squeeze the semi! But flash backs of family and those dear to me fulfill my misery! I'm losing myself on a daily basis, searching for reasons to continue breathing, it's like I'm trapped on a fucking oases, no one else to help face this agony that resides deep within, I've made my decision to swim, came up missing with no search and rescue mission! When that little peice of heaven turns dark, images you never thought embark, spawned inside of my brain and parked! Nothing has been the same the day they became. " I tried" "I won't" "Give up" "That easy.." -RB