love or hate

i dont know what to think, i dont know what to do, the only thing i know is that i really love you, i hope you love me, because honestly, id give u everything, if u would just let me, i want all of your lovin, i want your whole heart, if you left me, youd tear my world apart, i dont know whether i should love you or if i should hate you, but i cant picture my life without you, i wanna forgive u, i wanna forget this pain, i just want these fuckin thoughts of u to go away, its drivin me crazy, i dont know what to do, these voices keep telling me to run away, but i keep fighting them off with memories of u, my heart feels broken, its kinda fuckin shattered, at this point im not even sure if i mattered, but i gave it my best, and i gave it my all, i feel like throwing my fists against the wall, did i even matter at all,