truth be told (blunt)

Xander Shade

Author

8 years ago

I've been searching for a long time and it's been a while. Trying to find myself.. I struggle a lot. I Been in this rut before. So Imma just be honest. In searching from the inside. I found all I've done was hide these past few weeks. talking like we ain't got issues No please continue. when you are finished lying let me diss you. then spit some truth to the ppl I miss too. let's be be honest you left us. There were plenty of times that I could ever fucking miss you. We lost ourselves. At least I did. But i wonder. Did you? We walk in these streets focused on things thatll never get nowhere. they never get achieved. But best believe that success has it's boundaries. Bc no accomplishment can hold us underneath. Walk away if its necessary. its okay. Don't indulge into their strain. They Wanna push they will pull. N They wanna drain you. Want my advice? Dont let em take blame, n you Don't ever let em place blame too. Here if it helps I give you a mirror. Hold it up firm so They can see it clearer. They won't like the reflection of that projected fear. rejection once it falls into its own pretences. It gets carried away with Falsitity. Let it be clear. Just let em get mental. See that kid there? Let him be. Do yourself a favour. Just swallow down the tender pain. Just so we can Laugh for the day. Show these folks that you don't mind if you just walk away. Don't lie to yourself bc deep down you don't wanna fight. Uh see I got a ration of Advil so I can stab thoughts out. Y'all talk so much I got a headache wrapped up so chill. Sorry I been rude the last minute. But is it like you were even listening. Cant tell if I'm just kidding. Honestly If I had the time to care I'd still be sitting. But I'm anxious. If y'all had that motivated continuity of conversation. I might be more inclined to give a shit. Here save this thought for the thrill of that sensation. The one you keep mistaking. That's okay. Because I care now that you took a listen. my heart long ago was punched in. It won't pump No more I've popped it's piston. Chorus I'll stand up nice an tall for as long as my legs give out. I'll hold my breath until the sun comes out. I won't close my eyes until my lungs shut down. Where did the time go? I been looking for answers. N to my brother. I've lost my mind bro. I wish you were there. We used to be good. N now your in jail. It seems we lost the time we had that was too good to share. I wish you could man up and didn't bail when you had that little girl. I'll see you again someday.. true. I just hope you can finally be a better man. A family man...Damn.. Chorus I'll stand up nice an tall for as long as my legs give out. I'll hold my breath until the sun comes out. I won't close my eyes until my lungs shut down. Where did the time go? I been looking for answers. N for my father... I can't find the strength to tell you i love you but I do. I hate you more for leaving too. But you showed me something so good to the soul. It's not to be like you.. I'm glad you shrugged me of yo shoulders. It make me grow. I taught myself all these morals. Like you'd know tho.. Chorus I'll stand up nice an tall for as long as my legs give out. I'll hold my breath until the sun comes out. I won't close my eyes until my lungs shut down. Where did the time go? I been looking for answers. N for my friends and family I could never make this world so comfortable on my own. Or god sakes I'm an uncle. N I love ALL these little ones to death. I cherish every breath I get around yall. So if I'm bound to fall. At id still know that I have you all. Chorus I'll stand up nice an tall for as long as my legs give out. I'll hold my breath until the sun comes out. I won't close my eyes until my lungs shut down. Where did the time go? I been looking for answers. N To my mom I love you dearly. You raises me alone. I was born deaf. But I got back my hearing. If it wasn't for you I wouldn't speak clearly. You showed me confidence when I was getting bullied. n how to treat woman. I'll never lose that satisfaction of knowing you were a great person. I owe you my life. N I'll give that to you. I'm sorry my brother could never see for us what it was that you did right. Yeah. This is how you show me to be a better learner. It's easier to rap about life. So uhh. I guess I finally figured it out. Huh? No more facades to cascade I'm here to live it. Kick it with the ppl I have faith in.. don't let the noise fades in. These are the thoughts that I've been thinking. This shadow of mind