climb mountains falling

tryna skip threw life but im crawling, tryna climb tall mountains but I'm falling, backtracking so i can take the right road this time, looking for a new way out of this life of crime tired of feeling bad for myself its my time to shine. if you're still alive you still have a chance at life. working the game playing no games gaining nothing but bad memories and pain. All that remains I have yet to obtain. making strides to change my ways but I revise and recalculate, my mind needs to get back in line I'm a soldier and I'm in enemy lines, outta time. on a killing spree killing everything good that came from within me replacing it with a badder version the older I get the more I wanna quit, this life is hard. cant get by if you're any less than... smart minds open to recieve, learning is key I'm like a sponge I yearn for knowledge cuz I've wasted a lot back then I know I'm behind now but in the end I kno ill win the race and be everything you've wanted me to be looking forward to the day i make you proud and put a smile on ur face when youre looking down from heaven, make it so im not a disgraced you arent rolling in your grave so you aren't embarrassed of me in order to grow you have to let go of some bad habits i know its tough always looking for the light but all you see is darkness with hints of flashes. look up at the holes in the floor of heaven wonderin if good things are coming or if I should give up now and continue to be a heathen and put a gun to it. I cock back. God's got my back but life still hard especially when your doing good then get off track. you could always do better you could always lack. I'm head of my own war on the frontlines so pack your bag you may not be coming back when your running towards the dope sack. you stop to pause and try and rewind, trying to play God don't even know what your looking for don't even know why but anything is better than this you try an hit but you miss. try an retrace your steps nothing left but tracks, don't know what to do with yourself cuz ur all alone there's nobody else to console you besides the devil who you got sold to. you re stuck in place no tomorrow or yesterday just today so don't lose yourself the part of you you have left might be worth something someday if you learn how to worship and learn to pray you might just make it and you'll no longer need to fake a smile and take all the bullshit life replace your negative thoughts you can make it...you can make it