Therapy Session 1: The Appointment

so first of all, I want to say, at 3 minutes and 40 seconds roughly I accidentally added a voice changer which is what I use for the therapist throughout the song, and I cannot remove it or if I can I just can't figure it out so just ignore that part. but other than that, I hope everybody enjoys the song! "Therapy Session: The Appointment" is an emotional, cinematic song about the struggles we hide behind closed doors. Told through a conversation between a therapist and a patient, it explores years of bottled-up emotions, the difficulty of opening up, and the exhaustion of constantly pretending everything is okay. Sometimes you don't have the words to explain what you're feeling. Sometimes you don't even know where to begin. But taking that first step, sitting down, and finally telling the truth can mean more than you realize. This isn't a story about having all the answers. It's about finding somewhere to start. [Intro | Therapist, spoken] Alright… You can sit wherever you're comfortable. There's no right way to do this. You said on the phone that you weren't really sure what you wanted to talk about. That's okay. We can start anywhere. [Protagonist | Spoken] Anywhere? [Therapist] Anywhere. [Protagonist] Okay… I guess I'll start with the fact that I don't really know how to talk about myself. [Therapist] That's usually a good place to start. [Protagonist] Yeah… [Verse 1 | Protagonist] I wake up every morning with a weight upon my chest Hit the ceiling with my eyes and immediately feel stressed Alarm goes off, I shut it down, roll over, close my eyes Wish I could sleep through every second of my life But eventually I get up, put my feet onto the floor Walk around this empty room like I've done a thousand times before Look into the mirror, see somebody I don't know Wonder when the kid I was disappeared so long ago I got people that I love I got people loving me So why the hell am I still feeling like there's something wrong with me? Everybody says I'm lucky Everybody says I'm blessed But nobody can see the war that's happening inside my chest I learned how to fake a smile before I learned to ask for help Learned how to make everybody laugh while I was hating myself I'd rather say I'm tired than explain what's going on So I tell everybody "I'm good" then I fall apart when they're gone [Therapist] How long have you been feeling like this? [Protagonist] I don't know. [Therapist] Months? [Protagonist] Longer. [Therapist] Years? [Protagonist] … Maybe. [Chorus | Therapist & Protagonist] [Therapist] Tell me what's going on. [Protagonist] I don't know where to begin. [Therapist] Tell me what you're feeling. [Protagonist] Like I'm losing from within. I've been carrying this weight so long I forgot what breathing's like I've been living in the darkness while pretending I'm alright [Therapist] Are you broken? [Protagonist] Yeah… I think I might be. [Therapist] Are you hopeless? [Protagonist] Some nights it feels like I am. But I'm sitting in this chair so maybe that's a sign. Maybe some small part of me still wants to be alive. [Verse 2 | Protagonist] I don't even know what made me finally make the call Maybe I just got tired of pretending nothing's wrong at all Maybe I got tired of waking up already exhausted Tired of telling everybody that I'm fine when I'm not I've gotten really good at hiding what I feel Good at saying all the right things making everything seem real If somebody asks me how I'm doing I already know what to say "Good." "Fine." "Just tired." Then I change the subject and walk away. I don't want anybody looking too closely 'Cause what if they see something I don't wanna show? What if they ask me what's happening underneath and I don't have an answer for them? What if I finally tell the truth and they don't know what to do with it? [Therapist] You don't have to tell me everything today. [Protagonist] I know. [Therapist] You can take your time. [Protagonist] That's the problem. [Therapist] What do you mean? [Protagonist] I've been taking my time for years. [Beat drops slightly] [Protagonist] And nothing's changed. [Therapist] Maybe coming here is the first thing that's changed. [Protagonist] Maybe. [Pre-Chorus | Protagonist] I don't know if I came here to get better Maybe I just needed somewhere I could finally say I'm tired of carrying this by myself I'm tired of waking up every day [Therapist] You don't have to know how to fix it. [Protagonist] Then what am I supposed to do? [Therapist] Tell me the truth. [Final Chorus | Protagonist] Okay… I'm scared to say what's going on. I'm scared you'll think I'm weak. I'm scared that if I open up there'll be nothing left of me. I've been carrying this weight so long I forgot what breathing's like I've been living in the darkness while pretending I'm alright I don't know if I'm broken. I don't know if I'm hopeless. I don't know what happens if I finally let somebody close. But I'm sitting in this chair. So maybe that's a start. Maybe some small part of me still wants to find a way back. [Outro | Therapist, spoken] That's enough for today. [Protagonist] That's it? [Therapist] For today. [Protagonist] I barely told you anything. [Therapist] You told me enough. [Protagonist] … [Therapist] Same time next week? [Protagonist] Yeah. I think so. [Therapist] I'll see you then. [Door opens] [Protagonist | Quietly] Yeah… See you next week. [Door closes] [Outro | Protagonist, almost whispered] I don't know what I'm supposed to feel. But… I think I feel a little less alone. #LilMirage #TherapySession #TheAppointment #EmotionalRap #StorytellingRap #MentalHealthAwareness #NewMusic #OriginalMusic #DeepLyrics #ConsciousRap #HipHop #RapMusic #IndependentArtist #MusicWithMeaning #RelatableMusic #CinematicRap #UndergroundRap #EmotionalMusic #RealMusic #YouAreNotAlone #HealingJourney #MusicThatHitsDifferent #NewRelease #SupportIndependentArtists