Scared of the future

#Scaredofthefuture #McCP'ssongs I used to think that time would wait until I found my feet, Now I watch another year go by and barely feel a thing. Got a thousand things I'm planning, never knowing where to start, And a future I keep building that keeps falling apart. I see the people I once knew moving further down the road, While I'm carrying the weight of things I never learned to hold. They ask me what comes next, I tell 'em I'm working on it, But every road I draw somehow leads back to where I started. Sometimes I check the date to see how far the year's progressed, As if that could help explain this growing pressure in my chest. I'm not afraid of dying, I'm afraid of wasting time, Of spending all my better years just trying to survive. What if I grow accustomed to the things I should have changed? What if loneliness becomes a life instead of just a phase? I don't need the world to know me, don't need anyone impressed, I just wanna recognize myself in whoever's coming next. I'm scared of the future, of the man I might become, Of confusing being alive with just surviving another month. And if there's something waiting for me, something I can't see, Why does every road ahead look like the one behind me? I'm getting close to forty, still got dreams I haven't chased, And a younger version of me I can barely recognize these days. I thought I'd have a family, maybe children of my own, Instead I'm counting empty evenings in a place I call my home. I've watched relationships collapse and friendships slowly disappear, And the people I once counted on grow distant through the years. I keep telling myself there's time to turn this whole thing round, But it's hard to build a future when the past keeps dragging you down. Yeah I'm scared , I'm just scared, I'm just scared, I'm just scared of the future...