Confessing My Sins

Call after call ring after ring night after day day after night cant you hear me calling confessing my sin. What I feel within is really killin me man.... its really.....really~Really, It be really killin me man, killing me man, it be killing me man...dam..... Now I need to realease some pain off my chest. because its like a vest I wear for slugs to test. And life Comparred to death is a thought that wont rest. Its got me deprived of my sleep and my life is a mess. Now I leap into meth while I somber about whats left. Numb Now not ever needing no other. except my mother, but she aint there. Fuck my brother B-cuz he wasn't ever there. Once was but isnt now seen when my life is spiraling down. Kietté wey my ears be reluctant to sound. when its bullshit, spittin outcha 2 lips. Cue it action, Naw hold it, wait plug it, like a q-tip U blew this ya blew it dumb shit now alone I remain for the remainder of this lifelong experience that smells like some dried up shit in ah a colostomy bag you'll use as your IV drip, fucking sick, addict, dick piece of shit, suck it, ya nasty dumb bitch. I said I'm really hurtin this time hurt in this time. If you don't feel it ya dam sure better hear it in this ryme the clocks ticking away I'm running out of time from this day onto another day I said im~ I said I'm losing my mind~my mind. Call after call ring after ring night after day day after night cant you hear me calling confessing my sin. What I feel within is really killin me man.... its really.....really~Really, It be really killin me man, killing me man, it be killing me man...dam..... I said I'm really hurt in this time if you don't feel it ya damn sure better here it in this ryme. the clock's ticking and running out of time from this day to another day through another day I'm losing my mind. in some way ugh like tomorrow per say, my bestie actually better be on the grind. stacking Mackin, baking cake for my fines. cuz lately I've been lazy laying back acting slacking for nothing happens acting like I'm just doing fine but really in reality so to say realistically the technicality is I'm not living right the mother fucking fact of the matter is I'm thick headed like batter getting whipped feeling sadder slipping and trying and climbing this ladder of life. I learned my lesson . Gained some tools for my protection. That are impressive, from surving 6 months of out patient and its determined. That ill be determined to live out the rest of my life right like I wasnt an addict but was addicted to addictive substances , that were un predictable in predicting how fast I was killing myself day to night. day to night. day to night. Im really hurting this time. play a voicemail here. Call after call ring after ring night after day day after night cant you hear me calling confessing my sin. What I feel within is really killin me man.... its really.....really~Really, It be really killin me man, killing me man, it be killing me man...dam..... if I don't see it and nobody gives me the heads up on where it be at will I realize whether I rely on another there is a sign that there's a sign God I got it glad I got it it's like a bad habit you're fucking blind to see you have had it reality can I get a hold of it it's gravity can I grab it take control of it like a PlayStation controller and control it before it's too late cuz I'm baked and I lose it acting foolish like a childish kid for heaven's sake and he'll not to be created I bet a buck up and face it like as if they say today's the world's poker face championship so I better play my cards with good fair game and shit wisely betting every chip like everyone's my next breath of fresh air to live shit. said I'm really hurt in this time if you don't feel it your damn pin this rhyme clock sticking away I'm running out of time from the state of the day I'm doing another day I said I'm losing my mind lose in my mind call after call day after night night after day. ~