poem I wrote 🌹

waiting for some major change i don't show it but I feel the pain i don't open up, i refrain. sitting with myself I try to concentrate looking at myself I start to contemplate Wish I knew how to handle things that i can't change losing my grips of my reality rearranged  Try an decode all of life’s pains.  so i sit in silence with this frown on my face drowning in all these defeats that i anticipate face to face with my all my deepest demons I paint it and call it my forbidden fate I'm trapped in this daily my mind is my cage.   I cover insecurities with some of my rage. I can’t seem to  escape feels like for years stuck on this page Feel like a fool I recently found out my God is actually charade,  no one wants to hear the things that  I have to say.