#StillHereBam #streetmob #ts2026

#StillHereBam #streetmob #ts2026 I've been searching my whole life For purpose and meaning For a reason to go on To not swallow a bullet I've been on rocky grounds Took forever to find a solid foundation Mentally I'm not okay Most days I'm fighting the me inside of myself Yeah the woman in the mirror She never smiles her tears match mine I've asked her what does she want from me I'm screaming at her asking her what Fire she expect from me From as far back as I can remember I've been fighting for answers And when I got them They sounded more like excuses Than the truth From my youth to now I've struggled being trapped In my skin I can't seem to forget not forgive My past good times That never did last While the bad ones Always dragged my ass I raise my glass To the ones who stripped me Of my innocence And say kiss my fuc'n ass I wipe the tears away But now I've ran out of jars To fill And I feel I'm sinking In this lake I've filled Made from my tears My fears I've jumped in an out of this paddle boat Head barley above the tears These people that hurt me Never cared for me To do what they did I was just a kid I hid the pain for years . Now I'm putting it out there Cause I can't hold it inside Anymore It's depleting me It's reshaped me It's made me feel like I wasn't worthy enough Never enough Trapped in my thoughts In my own insecurities I wish I could be anyone but Me Oh I wish – I could be – Anyone else– anyone but me ··– I wanna be free I'm trapped in This self made prison I've tried everything from prayer to a seance I've tried to summon the devil cuz I never heard back from god I've been searching my whole life For purpose and meaning For a reason to go on To not swallow a bullet I've been on rocky grounds Took forever to find a solid foundation Mentally I'm not okay Most days I'm fighting the me inside of myself Yeah the woman in the mirror She never smiles her tears match mine I've asked her what does she want from me I'm screaming at her asking her what Fire she expect from me From as far back as I can remember I've been fighting for answers And when I got them They sounded more like excuses Than the truth From my youth to now I've struggled being trapped In my skin I can't seem to forget not forgive My past good times That never did last While the bad ones Always dragged my ass I raise my glass To the ones who stripped me Of my innocence And say kiss my fuc'n ass I wipe the tears away But now I've ran out of jars To fill And I feel I'm sinking In this lake I've filled Made from my tears My fears I've jumped in an out of this paddle boat Head barley above the tears These people that hurt me Never cared for me To do what they did I was just a kid I hid the pain for years . Now I'm putting it out there Cause I can't hold it inside Anymore It's depleting me It's reshaped me It's made me feel like I wasn't worthy enough Never enough Trapped in my thoughts In my own insecurities I wish I could be anyone but Me oh Anyone else,– anyone but me I wanna be free I'm trapped in This self made prison I've tried everything from prayer to a seance I've tried to summon the devil cuz I never heard back from god I've been on my bloody knees asking an begging god please Help me forgive help me forget But I'm still in this pain I'm still me I can't breathe at times I cry so hard Yeah I loose my breathe but some reason I'm still alive lord people die every day who didn't want to die so why not me take me Hell had to be better than this I'm still here I've been searching my whole life For purpose and meaning For a reason to go on To not swallow a bullet I've been on rocky grounds Took forever to find a solid foundation Mentally I'm not okay Most days I'm fighting the me inside of myself Yeah the woman in the mirror She never smiles her tears match mine I've asked her what does she want from me I'm screaming at her asking her what Fire she expect from me From as far back as I can remember I've been fighting for answers And when I got them They sounded more like excuses Than the truthFrom my youth to now I've struggled being trapped In my skin I can't seem to forget not forgive My past good times That never did last While the bad ones Always dragged my ass I raise my glass To the ones who stripped me Of my innocence And say kiss my fuc'n ass I wipe the tears away But now I've ran out of jars To fill And I feel I'm sinking In this lake I've filled Made from my tears My fears I've jumped in an out of this paddle boat Head barley above the tears These people that hurt me Never cared for me To do what they did I was just a kid I hid the pain for years . Now I'm putting it out there Cause I can't hold it inside Anymore It's depleting me It's reshaped me It's made me feel like I wasn't worthy enough Never enough Trapped in my thoughts In my own insecurities I wish I could be anyone but Me Oh I wish – I could be – Anyone else– anyone but me ·· Lord help me have u given up on me to Just tell me lord