I drown

01.10.26 I'm drowning in thoughts... They're about suicide, They're devouring my mind, And I see no light. I'm so fucking tired Trying to find a reason to live. The longer I live, The less I can fucking breathe! I'm not into it anymore, This fucking myth of meaning. This world's not for me, Nothing here seems real! I'm too stubborn, I believe in people too much. Guess that's why I'm alive I'm still fucking trying hold on! No mind matches mine, 99% still play this game. I'm not into fucking fakes, I'm not into, damn it! Ever since childhood, I've seen the bullshit around. And since I was six, I've prayed to God to take me out! Dunno why I even tried Playing this dirty shit. I had some feelings there, But these feelings fucking cheat! I hide no more, What's inside my mind. Devil, if you hear me - Pull me out of this tide! Seems god's left this place, How do I change this life? Feel sorry, wanted to know So much about this world. I dream of going back to sleep, I don't want this, please don't keep! Wasn't good idea open eyes, I see nothing nice! Before they told me, One man alone can't fight a war. An' now agree, I give up, let it all fall down! I was born alone, I'm alone right now; All this way alone, And all along I drown!