suicidal thoughts

[Intro] Yeah… 3 A.M., wide awake, thoughts running wild, Bills stacking up, pressure got me drowning inside. Phone keep blowing up, but I don't wanna talk, Pain in my chest every time I take a walk. [Hook] Deep thoughts, full of pain, I been fighting my mind, Suicidal thoughts creeping in from time to time. I just wanna make this pain disappear, But I'm still holding on while I'm drowning in fear. 3 A.M., paranoia in the air, Every knock at the door got me stopping to stare. Is it trouble at the door, or somebody I know? Either way, I'm fighting demons nobody sees though. [Verse 1] Bills on the table, red letters in the mail, Trying to keep my head up while my whole world's pale. Phone ringing nonstop, everybody needs something, But nobody hears the silence when my mind starts rushing. I been carrying this weight like a chain on my chest, Telling everybody I'm good when I'm far from my best. Dark thoughts whispering, "You can't take no more," But something deep inside keeps me reaching for the door. [Verse 2] Can't sleep, eyes open, staring into the dark, Every little sound got me jumping from the spark. I don't trust the night, don't trust what I hear, Paranoia talking loud when the room gets clear. I know what that darkness wants, I know where it leads, So I'm fighting back hard against everything it feeds. If tomorrow ain't promised, I'm surviving tonight, One breath, one minute, still looking for light. [Bridge] If you're hearing these words and you're feeling this pain, You ain't gotta hide it or carry the weight. Sometimes being strong means admitting you're tired, Sometimes staying alive is the biggest fight. [Final Hook] Deep thoughts, full of pain, but I'm still right here, Suicidal thoughts knocking, but I won't disappear. Bills still stacking, yeah, life still hurts, But I'm fighting through the darkness, putting pain into words. 3 A.M., staring straight into the night, Demons at the door but I'm choosing to fight. I don't know what tomorrow's gonna bring my way, But I'm still here breathing, so I live one more day.