Calculating

here im suffocating waiting debating if i should keep creating or if I should keep relating staying and even operating. calculating alternating through all my goddamn possibilities testing out all of my god damn abilities somethings snapping in my god damn brain figured that myself I can no longer be tame lost in the shame bout to give up on this game I need it light to continue to fight for what is right. lost in the night low sight here i might die tonight spite from the things that ain't going right. here i might die tonight spite from the things that ain't going right. I keep on thinking of times better than this somn with a different twist what is it cant put my tongue on it but I know there's a list of reasons I could’ve just eneded like this 'Cause here I might die tonight I can feel it inside but if I'm gonna go I'm going with a fight one more breath one more step one more goddamn try I was ready to die now I'm ready to survive Maybe I'm sick of just staring at the door while my shadow keeps asking what I'm waiting for my knees on the floor but I still got a pulse so I'm asking for more More air in my lungs more fire in my chest if the world wants me dead it can fucking do its best here im suffocating waiting debating if i should keep creating or if I should keep relating staying and even operating. calculating alternating through all my goddamn possibilities testing out all of my god damn abilities somethings snapping in my god damn brain figured that myself I can no longer be tame lost in the shame bout to give up on this game I need it light to continue to fight for what is right. lost in the night low sight here i might die tonight spite from the things that ain't going right.