still trying

heres for the third week i been missing you 2 more and ill be havin a brake 2 feel like i wanna drop pills do drugs whatever i can to come close to you because u made it all wonderfull somewhat unbelivable thought i was so stoned and alone that made me hella miserable i just tried to be nice but u met the criminal but u read my subliminals was i that lame? how pityfull or was it the fact that i didnt know how to respond to u after all this shit i put u through u make me go loose like an animal girl cuz ur so fuckin beautifull like a wolf i start to drool because ur my real go to if i need someone to get close to feel the warmth of ur body cuz i been asleep never felt happy till u came along and woke me up from my slumber . i feel happy so for u i write this verses about fuckin up damn i was supposed to be in love in stead we both chose drugs over us i went for the smoke and on and on i kept choking till i ran out of endorphines it aint the smokin its the sniffin that got me trippin , throat ripping must be from the rum i been sipping my whole self image is slippin blood from my nose is dripping down still i rather concentrate on sound its ill to me how this all felt so real so that right now is what ill hang on to how u made me feel? like i just woke up from some deep sleep but u wasnt around when i came around. emptiness. with u nowhere to be found for real u r my mountain to keep me from havin a crash down waking up all drowzy from the pills and feeling rowdy but still cant take the crowds makes me wanna fuckin bounce fuck it pass me 1 more ounce but u wouldnt even look me in my eyes must have fucked it up this time im supprised yesterday was fine so somethin must have happened is the only thing thats on my mind ur mad at me for not trying i give a fuck u start crying after all we're both lying now theres no longer sense in any denying