screams in her head

screams in her head Release fears In the streets  cries she don't cry Poetic pain runs deep  Substances and names she releases in her vains Running from the ones  Who love her most Only time will tell  If she breaks first  end up in a hurst  or Break this curse  where she hurts the cries in her chest  don’t let her sleep. she learned how to smile Scars on my soul  while her soul went numb, like a loaded gun, all the smoke and lies, Temporary peace to quiet her mind. chains on her spine, Asking God why her babies gotta hurt inside, No one to tell,  Running from the ones  that would die for me, Stuck with the hands  always trying to controlling me, Love turned cold,  trust buried in doubt, Trying to love him right But every female in his phone Comes with another story Scar on my soul,  he keep callin’ me a hoe But every girl in his phone  got a heart emoji showed Talkin’ down on my name  while he movin’ on the low Funny how the guilty always  put on the show He say I’m the problem,  I say look at your screen Too many side convos  for a man who act clean Tryna twist my mind,  make me question what I know But the truth hit different  when the lies overflow Cold nights, dark eyes,  tears on the floor Now my heart got armor  where the soft used to growl Now my second oldest  tryna take himself out.  I carry that weight   so the silence gets loud, Tears hit the floor  but I still stand proud. I done seen broken homes  make the toughest warriors bleed, Kids growing up  way too fast from the grief So i try to tell him he matters  every day that he wakes, i cry cause their voices  is enough  for my heart not to break. No mercy on me  At war with the world  generational scars Keep the family apart The ones that i could call Down underground And i went with them too  Hope my kids don't Follow the same Feel like sam smith  Just stay with me  Your all that i need My sisters conversations Stay in my mind And keep me on my grind Live with her words every night  Yeah Stars shine bightk Seen love change  When it rain outside  And i need them  to hold me tight