What's next by Niki fire(NTM)

what do I do? When all I can see is you. Even though i know, that you aint True. I thought I HAD sOMEBODY TO bE LOYAL TO. But everytime you say you love me. Start acting brand new. After you say it all i see from you is impatiance causing distance. You're not being persistant. I see you searching for everything else. You wont even look at me. what do I do to make you see me. I poured my all into you but you draining me now im feeling empty you need to see what life is like without me I swear, it's like this life is draining me. You taking all the good in me and left nothing but pain in me. i need my sanity to be more than just clairity.i know you dont remeber what its like to love me. only yhing you know is pushing and shoving me. you set my heart on fire. i could kill. you start alot of bullshit dont be another cheap thrill. touch the top. then climb down a mountain peak not making a sound. i make you mad you make me sad. Now i just dont care. you are without me but im fully aware. everybody want to kiss the lips.seperated everyday till i fooud tge moment to dip. (chorus) Too many times I called you out. but you ignored me. MISS THE DAY when you used to adore me. now its hard to get your attention. I dont try anymore i stay silent just watching your disrespect. you never do qhat you sy yoy gone do everytimes the last time lije whats next?