still i remain within the fire

still i remain within the fire possess the fual to feed the flames to power straight through every obstacle once made to block my way time after time day after day night after night spent with the rage can leave you violent by design i pray that god delivers change inside of me all these emotions mixing with the thoughts of you and has me feeling far to helpless maybe im the one confused deepest desire lead astray convincing lies and empty truth for all the times ive felt this pain thats cultivated through abuse found in the way the things you say can somehow change my point of view completely question my decisions incoheralent fortitude destroy myself against the grain to try shine to feel renewed the wasted of time that ive become still searching blind to feel amused dont be afraid after the madness and the magic we produced im not ashamed to say that i still need your spark to light my fuse still i remain within the fire now im finding kind of strange because ive been in here so long that now im home within the flames