not enough

I want to take a minute just to think about the s*** I've done f****** up and failng at life like I'm on the run in the cut and always a flight that was never fun beating up only on myself is it where I'm from? filthy field diamond in the rough fame here I come keep it real haven't had enough like I'm never done being still slacking from the jump this for everyone for heaven sake can I get a break what I can become elevate be a heavyweight I know I'm ill enough never wait eating off your plate till I'm filling up meditate to a great escape it is building up hesitate never losing a faith like a helium set a date rising to the grace but I'm feeling numb and I hate that I'm in my way like I'm really dumb aggravate trying to make a way like I'm steering huh contemplate throw it in your face till I'm feared enough