postpartum depression two

Verse 1 — Pregnancy When I was carrying your baby inside of me, I needed love, I needed somebody to see That my feet were swollen, my body was tired, And every day I was scared and wired. I asked for help, I needed you near, But somehow my pain disappeared. You had your feelings, you had your side, But what about the mother who was hurting inside? Pre-Chorus I wasn't asking you to be perfect, I wasn't asking you to save me. I just needed you to understand How hard it was becoming a mother while barely holding myself together. Chorus You don't know what you put me through, You don't know the nights I cried because of you. While I was carrying your baby and fighting my fears, I was holding back pain and hiding my tears. Then our baby came early, and everything changed, The NICU became a place I never wanted to know by name. You were worried about your baby, and I was worried too, But somewhere in all that chaos, I was fighting too. Verse 2 — NICU Machines by her bedside, wires everywhere, I wanted to protect her, but I couldn't stop the fear. I watched my little girl struggle just to breathe, While a piece of my heart was breaking underneath. You were scared because she was your baby, But don't forget—I was scared too. I was her mother sitting there beside her, Praying God would pull us through. I needed someone to hold me when I cried, Someone to tell me we'd be alright. Instead, there were arguments and tension around me, When all I wanted was peace while my baby needed me. Chorus You don't know what you put me through, You don't know the nights I cried because of you. While our daughter was fighting just to make it through, I was fighting my own battle too. You saw a father worried about his child, But you didn't always see the mother losing her smile. I loved her just as deeply as you did too, And while she was fighting to live, I was fighting too. Verse 3 — Postpartum Then she came home, but I wasn't okay, I was exhausted and drowning every day. Postpartum depression had taken over my mind, But I didn't even understand it at the time. I was supposed to be happy, supposed to be strong, But inside I felt like everything was wrong. I was learning how to be a mother while trying to heal, Trying to understand emotions I couldn't explain or feel. And instead of feeling safe enough to fall apart, I felt like I had to protect my heart. You had your hurt, and I had mine, But somehow my pain got pushed aside. Bridge And I'm not saying you didn't love your daughter, I'm not saying you weren't scared for her. But I need you to understand something— I was her mother, and I was scared too. I wasn't trying to keep you from being her dad, I wasn't trying to make everything bad. I was a broken woman trying to survive, Trying to keep myself together while keeping our baby alive. You can remember your pain, But don't erase mine. You can tell your story, But I deserve to tell mine. Final Chorus You don't know what you put me through, But I remember everything I had to do. Pregnancy, the NICU, those postpartum nights, Crying in silence and pretending I was alright. You saw the mother who struggled, But maybe you never saw the woman underneath— The woman who was terrified, exhausted, And begging God for peace. I wasn't perfect. I wasn't always okay. But I never stopped loving our daughter for one day. And if you ever wonder what I was going through, Just remember these words when you hear them come through: I loved our baby. I loved you. I was hurting. I was scared. And through it all… I was fighting too. Outro So this isn't a song about hate. It's a song about what you never saw. The mother behind the tears. The woman behind the pain. The person who survived the darkness And still got up again.