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(Breathe) Look, I'm sitting in this one spot, completely paralyzed inside Depression eating me alive, got nowhere left to hide Mentally exhausted, physically heavy, stuck in my own head Staring at the wall for hours, feeling like I'm better off dead Just frozen in place, can't move, can't think, can't even start Every breath I take feels like a rock crushing on my heart Scrolling through this phone, trying to find a reason to feel whole Wishing somebody prioritized me, chosen from the soul Instead I'm trapped in this body, heavy, cold, and numb Waiting on a breakdown that I know is bound to come (Pause) Then on top of all of that, I gotta deal with this bullshit outside Got this fuckin' fuckboy knocking, running up to hide Ringing my doorbell like crazy, harassing me at my door Won't leave me the fuck alone, acting like he wants war And the staff at Joseph Center? Man, they see the whole thing Standing right outside my door, listening to that bell ring Instead of doing their fuckin' job and making him step back They just stand there laughing at me, treating it like a joke to crack They don't do a damn thing to help, just watching me suffer