down on myself

i want a diamond in the back so my son can get in i wanna slice of this pie a fuckin welcome mat when i decide i wanna go in remember the last one that tried and im only one in i want it all and a hounddogg and ill proudly say my dad showed me the ways of a true man put good in gwt good out he had his hands turning over black dirt truth is you don't wanna be me order of protection my baby momma wants to be my enemy now money ran out she won't let me FaceTime my son like a ransom till she gets the cash in hand change of plans pick up pieces of my heart i gotta move different she eats for one i eat for two and thats written sealed with a fuckin kiss i put my touch on it dont let the door hit ya where i should of pushed up on it more like dont let randy diss ya on a fifty cent draft night fuckin penniless rub two quarters together and make it work half a dollar but no quarter im focused on your well being your a husband brother and a father examine one self take a look in the mirror i remember being disgusted looking back at myself for a period of time i wouldn't do mirrors ashamed to look at myself i thought i did all wrong when i was just being man sit back and witness the evil that wicked men do my pops was such as a badass he told me Go and be a second son to these dead beat dads make time for em they can't help it they was never around and i hated it hw had sympathy for them his people worlds strongest dad on a plaque his prized possession my sister Gifted him with it when she was in grade school peep game and observe for as long as you can become your own man be make your own decisions or end up a dead man dumb man got played for a fool he wanna sell drugs and hang with his best buds wind up in no man's land face down with his bare ass hanging out robbed and ran through he got his hopes when that glass pipe got passed around last night on the town turn out the lights from the world class wrecking crew you wouldn't wish this shit on your enemy what this bitch put me through princess i asked her to marry me too have a fuckin family with a chance to make it fuckin happen make the commitment is none to slim out for the count put me back in clown on a drunk ninow chess game king of my castle my thwant it all prepared for my son before he ever walks in truth is you don't wanna be me order of f protection baby momma wants to be my enemy now money ran out she wont let my son facetime me like a ransom till she gwts the cash in hand ill ghost everything i know relocate to foreign land go broke and without a home just to be close to my him start fresh pickup where i put this bitch down behind enemy lines it what it feels like im all in the mix