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“Behind These Walls” [Intro] Yeah… This one’s for my son. No matter where you are… A mama’s heart don’t stop beating for her baby. Never. [Verse 1] I remember when I held you, you were tiny in my arms, Never knew that life could bring us this much harm. I promised I would guide you, promised I'd protect, But life threw us some battles that I never could expect. Now I’m staring at a phone, wishing I could hear your voice, Wishing I could turn back time and change every broken choice. You’re sitting behind walls, I’m sitting here at home, Two hearts separated, but you’re never alone. I know you made mistakes, and I won't pretend you didn't, But you're still my baby boy, and my love ain't got an ending. The world might see your charges, see a number, see a file, But I see that little boy who used to make his mama smile. [Chorus] Behind these walls, I hope you hear me, When the nights get dark, just know I'm near you. You might feel lost, you might feel scared, But mama's love is something nobody can tear. Behind these walls, there's still tomorrow, There's still a road beyond the pain and sorrow. You ain't your worst day, you ain't your past, My son, we'll find a way to make this darkness pass. [Verse 2] I’ve cried so many tears they could fill an ocean, Carried all this weight with a heart full of emotion. Sometimes I blame myself, asking what I could've done, But I know I can't rewrite the things that have already come. I wish I could sit beside you, put my hand around your shoulder, Tell you, “Son, keep fighting, you're stronger than you know, bro.” Tell you one bad chapter doesn't make the whole book, And there's still a different road if you're willing to look. You got anger in your heart, but you got love in there too, And somewhere underneath it all, I still see you. Not the headlines, not the courtroom, not the pain, Just my son—and I'll keep calling out your name. [Chorus] Behind these walls, I hope you hear me, When the nights get dark, just know I'm near you. You might feel lost, you might feel scared, But mama's love is something nobody can tear. Behind these walls, there's still tomorrow, There's still a road beyond the pain and sorrow. You ain't your worst day, you ain't your past, My son, we'll find a way to make this darkness pass. [Bridge] And if you're sitting there wondering If your mama still cares… Look at the moon tonight— I'm looking at it too. Same sky. Different rooms. Same blood. Same love. And when they tell you that you're broken, Don't you let those words define you. You still got a life ahead, And I'm gonna keep reminding you. [Verse 3] I don't know what tomorrow brings, I don't know how this story ends, But I'll keep showing up for you, Like a mother, like a friend. I want you to learn from this, Not let this become your name. Turn the pain into a purpose, Turn the darkness into change. And someday when these doors open, I hope you're standing tall, Not because you never stumbled, But because you rose after the fall. I'll be waiting on the other side, With tears running down my face, And I'll say, “Come here, baby boy. Let's start again. Let's find our place.” [Final Chorus] Behind these walls, I hope you hear me, Every single night, your mama's spirit's near you. No matter how far, no matter what they say, I'll keep believing there's a better day. Behind these walls, there's still tomorrow, There's still healing after all this sorrow. You ain't your worst day, you ain't your past, You're my son, and my love will always last. [Outro] So if you hear this, Johnathan… Just remember one thing: Mama hasn't forgotten you. Mama hasn't stopped loving you. And this isn't the end of your story. It's just a chapter. Keep your head up, baby boy. We still got pages left. ❤️