if only i could take back all my wrongs , if only i could take back all the time i lost , if only i could have known bet

if only i could take back all my wrongs , if only i could take back all the time i lost , if only i could have known better than i would'have done better now i look back reminiscen about the time i jumped off the porch i was like fukk it since wen has this been easy? Before I spit the fire It all started with sizzles, Told myself I had to be sicker Den a hospital lost and won Then my confidence double tripled, Battles waitin' on me ive already Accepted and dominated,hates slept on me Im so underrated, You can’t sleep on me that's when ill catch a win u got to take a lost to become a boss Take a loss and shake it off That will tur 1lp1qqno i canot hide the pain any longer, wishing someone would feel My pain for once but then i think about it i don't wish this pain on any one , i cannot wait for the day that i can finally get this pain off me its been a long journey! drifting off by myself just to put my feelings in a song rather if i freestyle or rite it down.Nothing New, looking around , no where insight do i see anybody iknew , something blew, blew like a fuse , looking around, cant even find a clue , to what had blew , , that's when i then i recognize that the people ive been looking around for had vanish when shit got rough on my part, when shit was rough on their part gues who was there instantly me dog , i kept it gangsta and solid on my part dont get me wrong i still got hella love for em , and would still go to war for em , but thisxhit got a little brotha fucked up has me wondering does anybody have love for a thug ? voices inmyListen, I know I’ve been rude, it’s true, I’ve been a fool, Caught up in my pride, didn’t see the toll, breaking you, Words sharp as knives, cut deep like a cruel blade, Now I’m left with regret, in this mess I've made. Thought I was the king, but I’m just a court jester, Chasing shadows, lost sight of what’s truly better, Can’t rewind time, but I’m wishing on a prayer, Trying to mend the bonds, ,. Every word I spit, I can feel the weight of doubt, Silence in the room, every scream’s a hidden shout, I’m sorry for the nights spent in a storm of rage, Now I’m flipping through the pages, trapped inside this cage. Hoping for redemption, but the past haunts my mind, Every moment wasted, still I’m trying to rewind, I’m breaking down the walls, brick by brick I’ll climb, To show you that I’m real, through the rhythm and the rhyme. or listen , i kno ive been rude to you and i apologize for putting u through the verbel aggression ,