all these rancid ratchet thoughts today decay speak different place away far enough that I can fade this may deposit if

all these rancid ratchet thoughts today decay speak different place away far enough that I can fade this may deposit if you stays but nothing going to be okay okay I said it I didn't regret it I mean what I said in maybe I should just change everything is setting maybe I should say a different sentence relentless pain suffering and wash is completely over me nothing I see I'm overly I overthink never lies realize today comes in a different phase comes in a different maze heartless memories things that should have been nothing but enemies surrounded by so simple tend to be thought or no friend to me no friend to be I wish it with all this and you see torment cost it in my head my heart holding from the start never had a chance never had a playing view never seen you never seen to cut the scene too alone in my world wishing I was dead while the constantz thoughts of you keep playing in my head was it something I did was it something I said no wonder I can't eat no wonder why I can't go to bed desperate agony malicious intent you took everything out of me how to get so far how to get so far away from the way we were from the way we started it was everything a okay now it's dead and now it's gone I lost my sorrow lost in the world of veil curtains drawn black shades shawls remembering things rings birthday scenes that I never got to be never going to be okay premonitions I knew it in this way I never had nothing that makes me feel okay drift away drift the pain gripped st the rain hot as fuck never rained hell keeps calling my name calling my name let it all fade let it all jump back never going to come back I hope that these are just fucked up thoughts I hope that these aren't the true fact I couldn't imagine living a life that doesn't include you stuck to you like some kind of shoe blue now I feel like fruit loop now I feel like you're really through the mind take me out the misery I'm lost no no more patterns no more symmetry the balance is turned upside down the carousel is gone round and round and I just keep spiraling down down down no more smile permanent frown no more style distant confliction I can feel the friction distant is where you've always been remember back when and fit perfectly in my hand and now it's all gone I feel the storm just suffering the pain unmatchable unimaginable I got to get a handle though sigil was lit with the candle invoke the darkness call upon the heartless like the flame going to spark this maybe I'm just the dark ones Target