still feeling alone

every time we lay in this bed i just feel like your so far away i keep telling myself that its fine until the sun fades away and the sky feels with stars and I start thinking im just going to lose you like i lost the rest this pain in my chest is making it hard to breathe im just waiting for the day that you tell me to pack my stuff and leave i guess thats just what life is supposed to be im tired of being with someone and still feeling alone she always asking if im fine when I say ya its just another lie just so i can keep our light alive. even though I already know that your just going to leave me high and dry im starting to think that I should just go fry my mind so I dont have to hear you say good bye i have heard it so many times i just accept it like there handing me a peace of pie. it started out fine but the longer it goes i just start feeling like your no longer mine so just bury me with this pain that I feel inside and maybe i will find another reason to keep on trying