Lord tell me

sometimes i miss how i used to feel miss how i thought everybody intentions were always pure i miss that ignorance it truely was bliss but thats just whats sacrificed for being real i miss what i thought were friends but them bitches weren't even real was just a pawn in there game of who can get who lord should i kill them with kindness and forgive them foreal should ileave it to karma is it the only way to heal this broken heart and fill the spaces left from all the pieces of me ppl keep on taken is it the only way to stop the pain or is pain really the cost of keeping it real lord please tell me how i should feel help me discern my boundaries so that i may heal these wounds that keep on haunting me please be my shield give me the strength to leave it to you does it make me weak cause thats how i feel always leaving it to karma without seeing it pay its dues leaving it to faith while keeping true to myself cause thats what you do when you're being real lord should i kill them with kindness and forgive them foreal leave it to karma is it the only way to heal this broken heart and fill the spaces left from all the pieces of me ppl keep on taken is it the only way to stop the pain or is pain really the cost of keeping it real tell me lord is it worth being real in a world full of fakes does showing love make me worthy if its towards the ones who caused me pain is being kind even worth it in a world full of hate or will they mistake it for weakness when i don't retaliate will they they use my heart against me for their own personal gain should i love them from a distance or should i let them back in lord should i kill them with kindness and forgive them foreal should ileave it to karma is it the only way to heal this broken heart and fill the spaces left from all the pieces of me ppl keep on taken lord should i kill them with kindness and forgive them foreal should ileave it to karma is it the only way to heal this broken heart and fill the spaces left from all the pieces of me ppl keep on taken is it the only way to stop the pain or is pain really the cost of keeping it real