"ITS HARD TO STAY UP " One day we feel good and all is fine..all my visions are clear then at times there blind..how do I explain to the ones that believe in me..that when I'm up I fall so easily..the black sheep of the family a failure it seems..my mother said "boy you want make it to see 18.. 30 odd years have past God's blessings are near..society is hard to battle but I have no fear..struggling and striving to meet success..it's best to be down and out then to be dead I guess..waking up in the morning is truly great..because a life is something thats easy to take...AND IT'S HARD.. it's hard to stay up..when will when will I have any luck..and it's hard it's hard to be on top when will when will the falls stop.. Is something in store for all mankind.. so I keep on search finally find so stressful my life is not complete... I can't settle down with no one that I meet. I often think I'm crazy or maybe insane..my thoughts are so damn irregular but there's no one to blame.. SomeTimes I grabbed my face damn times I try to hide ..but the tears keep rolling like a loved one has died.. never giving up I'm determined to succeed.. I got a little girl and a daddy she needs.. Austin stop and look to the sky breaking down on my knees and ask God why is it..hard to stay up..when will I have any luck.. And it's hard to be on top when will the fall stop.. Why is it me that feeling the pain.. why is it me that gets soaked by the rain .one day I'll be taken so far away hoping to see a better and brighter day ... eternal life or just straight to my grave.. reincarnation or I'll just want be saved..is there a better world where the streets are gold.. where everyone stays Young and never get old... The cruel world will try to deceive ya.. I'll keep my head up and always believe ya..that one day I'll be taken so far away.. hoping to see a better and brighter day.. You know its hard...to stay..up