Disappearing instead

Disappearing instead of constantly appearing, because they still chase me, leave me alone, damn it! I don't want the spotlight, I'm truly underground, I don't do and never will do shows, I always go unnoticed, like just another pawn on a chessboard, dirty and private sex, even in a kind club, people wear masks, nobody reveals their name, only intimate parts and burning desire for unknown flesh, I need to stop, my mind always tries to escape to the other side, it takes a lot of time and effort to keep it on this side.