2 hard 4 m3

it's so hard for me to have to see all these struggalin times that's bugging my mind my heart is broken open and wide but yet still I try eventhough I'm way too damn close to the end of the line so I'll be damned if I should lie I apologize to every single soul that was ever a part of my life it's all up to you whether you forgive me or not for all my wrongs or rights just take the best parts of me and all the memories of me and mix em with my ashes and make me a sandcastle on the edge of the sea and let the waves come set me free in remembrance of me 1 4 3 I know I can be a real piece of shit and I know I can slip into the deep end I know I have a problem with building so many walls and worst of all Im made to make sure I build em extremely tall I know that I'm too quick to give up and not give a shit but if anyone truly knew me they'd know that I always have and always did shid maybe my insecurities is a danger zone a place where I try my best to never let the people I love and care for to ever go astray and end up there where its the place to never know I feel like a human ghost warm inside but outside froze I hate the fact that I'm too nice and maybe that's why invisible enemies i cant see draws in close so close to me that I'm the host so much so that I'm nothing more than a joke a hopeless romantic Schizophrenic overthinking the most bc every soul that I ever gave my flesh to along with my hope to be in love with love with share laughter and fun with embracing hugs and kisses under the sun with somehow always managed to leave me broke