Coping With Pain

Lost in the shadows, where the demons creep, Heart heavy, mind racing, can't find no sleep. Pourin' out emotions in a bottle, take a sip, Nights feel eternal when you’re trapped in this grip. Clouds in my head, feel the weight of the world, Only find peace when that smoke gets swirled. Drowning in my thoughts, yeah, I'm fighting the tide, But the highs feel real, it’s the only way to ride. Chorus I’m a thug so I just been relying on these drugs because I don’t get no love if I start feeling emotional I just push my emotions away with a shove Darkness in my soul, but the light’s in the haze, Chasin' down the moments, lost in a daze. A quick escape route when the pain's too intense, Coping with this life, but it don't make sense. Every hit I take, it's a battle in my mind, Searching for salvation, but it’s hard to find. These voices keep me breathing, but I’m slipping away, In this game of survival, I’m just trying to stay. Smoke in my lungs just to quiet the noise, A slow-burning fire when I’ve lost all my joy. The world gets too heavy, the dark gets too deep, And these folded-up papers are the promise I keep. It’s the anchor that holds when the edge comes too close, The only sweet medicine masking the ghost. When breathing feels hollow and hope starts to break, It’s the one steady thing keeping me awake. I smoke this weed to help keep me sane so I don’t go crazy from all this pain I keep wondering if my life is going to change or if it’s just going to stay the same men I don’t know all I know is that I’m going to go insane I when I’m feeling low I get that wrap and blow feel like I can’t do this anymore I’m about go knock on heavens door maybe I should just go disappear maybe I should just get out of here maybe I shouldn’t even be here maybe I should just blow smoke in the air to help me fight this despair Chorus I’m a thug so I just been relying on these drugs because I don’t get no love if I start feeling emotional I just push my emotions away with a shove