Goodbye

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[Intro] Yeah... look. Same day, different kind of pain, man. I ain't ready for this. Rest in peace to my dawg... Rest in peace to my papa. Let's go. [Verse 1: Woke up to the sound of silence in the hall Lookin' at the collar hangin' up there on the wall Gotta make the call, hold my dawg as she falls Vets in the room, I’m starin' at the tiled floor Tryna find a way to make it hurt a little less But my chest is so heavy I can barely take a breath I'm a fuckin' mess, pet her head, close her eyes The hardest of goodbyes, the bitterest of cries I've known you since the days I was barely touchin' five And now I'm watchin' the syringe help my best friend survive Wait, no... end the pain, I'm insane, goin' numb Since I was a little kid, we were always made as one Now my throat is full of lumps, and my heart is on the run And I'm broken down, lookin' at the floor, man The same dog that protected me from boogeymen at war, man Walkin' out the clinic with an empty-ass leash Leavin' pieces of my soul underneath the concrete, yeah. [Chorus: These demons in my head, they're playin' ping-pong I just put my dawg down, it won't be too long Before I'm in the sky, singin' the same sad song Grief in my cup, I’m sippin' on the pain, yeah Grief in my cup, I’m dancin' in the rain, yeah Tryna keep my head up, but I'm goin' insane. [Verse 2: Wipe the tears from my face, got a swenty four-hour drive Gotta get to Michigan, gotta keep my papa alive Gotta see him face to face before his heart takes a dive Foot is on the gas, I'm doin' ninety in the fast lane Tryna outrun the sorrow but I'm chasin' all the same rain Flashbacks of my childhood, playin' video games With the man who taught me everything, 'fore the sickness came Got to the house, walked into the living room Looked at my Papa, swear to God, he was lookin' ghostly too watchin' the monitors dip Tryna keep it together but I'm losin' my grip He looked at me and said, "Grandson, it’s alright to quit." No! Stop that! Don't you give up on me yet! Just a month ago we was laughin', now you're drenched in a sweat! Two fatal blows to the head in a single day Watchin' all the people that I love just fade away. [Chorus: These demons in my head, they're playin' ping-pong I just put my dawg down, it won't be too long Before I'm in the sky, singin' the same sad song Grief in my cup, I’m sippin' on the pain, yeah Grief in my cup, I’m dancin' in the rain, yeah Tryna keep my head up, but I'm goin' insane. [Verse 3 Now we fast forward a month and the grief is a monster Feastin' on my sanity, I feel it in my posture Slumped over the steering wheel, screamin' at the sky Tell me why the good die, tell me why the dogs cry When their owners are gone, but I’m the owner here Left alone with the trauma and my deepest fears Lookin' at the urns, got a dog and a gramps Sittin' on the mantlepiece beneath the electric lamps Am I cursed? Am I damned? I'm just swervin' in the van Tryna stick to the plan but I'm barely a man I’m a ticking time bomb, feelin' so frantic Tryna numb the fact that I'm completely in the panic Attack mode, blacked out, punchin' through the drywall Losing everybody that I needed in the long haul Can't take it! Erase it! I'm facin' the matrix! Got my dawg in the box, got my pops in the basin! Both of 'em gone, and I'm left here rotatin' In a pool of my own tears, heart palpitatin'! [Outro: Slowed down, Melodic] Sometimes I wish I could trade places Lookin' at all these empty, vacant spaces My dawg, my papa... You were my angels, now you're up in the stars I'll heal my scars, I'll take my car, I'll drive away... I'll see you another day.

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11 days ago

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11 days ago

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