Letter To My Kids

Letter to my lids, Madison and Mackenzie Zach y If you ever hear this… I need you to know… Your dad never stopped loving you. ⸻ Dear children, it’s been a while since I heard your voice And not a day goes by that I don’t feel that void Every birthday, every holiday, every empty chair Every moment wishing somehow I could still be there I got pictures in my phone that I stare at alone Trying to remember how it felt when you called me home Trying to memorize every laugh and every smile Cause some days memories feel like they’re fading with the miles And that’s the part that breaks me The part I can’t explain How the consequences stay long after the change I know I caused damage I know I caused pain And if I could undo it all I’d do it today _____ If you hear this song Just know your dad tried And every day I’m clean Is another way I fight I can’t change yesterday No matter how I pray But I’m becoming who you deserved Day by day ⸻ I came from broken people carrying broken hearts Trying to build a future from a shattered start Grandpa fighting demons Grandma lost in pain And I spent my whole life trying not to be the same But trauma has a way of hiding in your skin You swear you’ll never repeat it then it happens again I thought I had control I thought I had a plan Till addiction took everything I thought made me a man And that’s not an excuse It’s just the truth I know Cause healing only started when I stopped putting on a show And now I’m learning how to live Learning how to feel Learning how to sit with pain instead of reaching for a pill ⸻ If you hear this song Just know your dad tried And every day I’m clean Is another way I fight I can’t change yesterday No matter how I pray But I’m becoming who you deserved Day by day ⸻ (Verse 3) Maybe one day we’ll sit down and talk And I won’t have to tell this story through a song Maybe you’ll have questions Maybe you’ll have anger Maybe you’ll need time before you see the stranger But I’ll be right here I ain’t running anymore Not from the truth Not from the hurt Not from the war Cause recovery taught me something stronger than pride Love isn’t words It’s who you become over time So until that day comes And I get to see your face I’ll keep doing the next right thing One day at a time with grace And if nobody told you lately Let me make it clear Your dad loves you more than anything And he’s still here ⸻ (Outro) I don’t know when we’ll talk again… But when that day comes… You’ll meet a different man. And that’s who I’ve been fighting to become. @rapfame_official @rapfame_ar_team Thank you for the opportunity