What is your belief , I'ma at my lowest right now it's a count down to see how fast I can fall but I'm seeing how much

What is your belief , I'ma at my lowest right now it's a count down to see how fast I can fall but I'm seeing how much I can take filling rolecoster yalling to see how can hear me but nothing and poush comes to shuve but you trying to hold me close to you I say no to you for myself and noone also just myself I'm for me from now on just myself and ill keep my head high and not let anyone make me fill the way I have agen my filling and hart are locked up never to be see of agen no more horting me after this I'ma havem