fake love

hey yo a little bit of how my story goes lets go . looking back at my past nothings changed nothings last , just another broken heart all because you tore it apart . feeling low and beyond the surface you swore to me youd never hurt us . leaving me feeling worthless guess this was your whole purpose now i dont know what to do or what to think or how to act because took every little bit of me that i had left and thats a fact . now im spitting flows on this track having constant flashbacks yes i said constant flashbacks i thought you were the best thing that ever happened to me but now im sitting here crying and cant up get off of my knees .praying & praying that you would come back to me or even an apology or a forgive me please . but no i dont want you back anynore sitting here in this pysch ward to walk outside those doors to see you with another dirty blonde headed whore i wish i never let you into my heart let alone my front door coz now all im doing is curling up in a ball feeling like smashing my head into these fucking walls . looking and staring at these green and blue damn draws wishing this pain im feeling was the pain you could feel as yours , i gave you my heart my love and my soul too for you to cheat use and abuse .you acting like a fucking. goose now im at the point of what am i meant to do . what am i meant to do while your running around doing fucking god knows who whiile ya brothers be trying to get into my cooche . but you had no clue yeah ya had no clue the shit i have had to go through just makes me wanna spew all i ever needed was fucking you but i just wasnt enough for either you boo yes i yell yes i scream thats just me being me with all the pain i hide inside and dont let out doesnt give you the permission to abuse and go gettabout all i want to do is love you and hold you tight , but this can't happen until you start to make things right . you tell me you love me tell me im your life but yet you fail to treat me as your fucking wife. you made a vow that you couldnt stick by instead youd rather sit there get off yoour head and lie and say by.e without even an legitimate try its gotten to the point where ive cut my wrist and just wanna die because im over all the over fake love and lies and thats pretty rough huh. #marck#143#