Im just trying to keep my head up high

Im just trying to keep my head up high This face is lie Multiple vaults Lock Pain inside No music ride Gotta hear my thoughts inside I remember nights I cried Nights I really wished i died Times I failed and I know Tried did my best Took peaces of my heart ripped Right out my chest Gave to people who interest wasn't for my best Always Gave more When I should've gave less Even when I appeared happy I was stressed Given so much of me away I don't know what's left The ones checking in just wanna see what's left to take So many fakes Everyone want to take charge like they head a state Allergic to beef can't even enjoy a good steak. All this pain on my plate baked potatoe couple sides hate easy to consume when u allergic to steak they not concerned how you eat but watch on ya weight Vision blurred but still see straight Swimming in a ocean of pain That use to be a lake now Waves in my face Gotta keep motion Can't float To much weight on my back Gotta push forward Ain't no turning back 4th 50 no pass just a running back Life play for keeps Ain't no run.it back Once it's ova Ain't no coming back no pitty party I slept in the dirt nothing but a sheat on back Left messages got no calls back me n the wife in the front seat Clean clothes in the back Dirty in the hatch They quiet won't speak on that Had to Shower at truck stops where was fam at mad when i talk facts feelings hurt when i talk bout that how you think i felt i had walk through that I couldn't feel sympathy care Till i knew empathy Put the glasses on now I see everything vividly I no longer see faces just energy