the end of suffer

13.05.26 She's always open to talk, We have no misunderstood. She doesn't make negative, That what I want narrative. She's smart on her own, She's mature, keep promises. She's make an energy love, There's no pain and no awful. But it's just my fucking dream, It's not the same in the real. It's not what I would to have, I feel I'm dying everyday! I feel I loosing myself, I feel no happy with her. Because of pain, it's so more, I don't believe anymore. And I don't know how to start, I'm like a fading in stars. Someone don't care what I say, I screams I'm dying everyday. I beg you leave me alone, I need to think everything. And happy moments we had, It's makes me blind and stupid. I disrespectful myself, It shouldn't be on this way. Forgave you over 10 times, And I don't see any change. I only hear and I hear, These fucking words have no cost. This sadly cry like a game, To make me play shit again. And yea, before it was works, But now I'm smarter I was. And now I'm sure need clear mind, Need check again and remind. You leave me no any choice, This only way to get safe. I can't love anyone, If no respect and love myself. At here I can't be myself, I suffer down fucking down! No one has ever brought me To such a state in my life. I did a song a "punched out", That was the last of my scream. You've hear there only you want, For me it's so bullshit. Important mind was ignored, With conversation I'm bored. I truly shocked you don't care, With you my calm truly rare. It makes me questioning, Is this way I wanna go. My answer is strict - it's mean not, I want have happy, love. But even there's a love, I don't think should be so pain. It might be really some love, But really sick as I see. So what the reason to stay, To feel so much fucking pain. Before we leaded so close, I let you know really clear! No way you keep any sad, No way ignore / offended, We have a tongue and brain, What fucking don't understand? You choose ignore - I'm ok, Not first time playing this game. You know, I can it survive, Surely someday meet my wife! She will respectful to me, She will really hear me, She'll care what I feel, And won't make me to leave. "You're really so good, You did nothing so bad" - Of course the problem with me, I should choose to leave before! I hope no one ever treats you The way you treated me, I really tried hard but you reduced it to zero... I feel worse than ever, How many futile attempts...