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I'm so fuckin anxious, got these thoughts in my head, Thought I was a king, but I'm feeling like I'm dead, Mama raised a soldier, but I’m losing my way, Words like daggers, cut deeper every day. Hurt the ones I love, now the bond’s turned to dust, Regret in my veins, man, it’s hard to adjust, Broken promises, shattered dreams in the air, Can’t take it back, now I’m drowning in despair. Heart heavy like a chain, can't break free, Fighting with my demons, they keep haunting me, Lost in the chaos, can’t find my peace, Wishing for a moment where this pain could cease. Staring at the mirror, see a stranger's face, Searching for redemption in this empty space, Life’s a battle, every day’s a new fight, But I’m rising from the ashes, ready for the light. I deeply regret what I did, can't escape this pain, Hitting my mom, yeah, I know I crossed the line, insane, Justice principles twisted in my ego's head, Thought I was a king, but now I feel the dread. Empty nights haunt me, sleep’s a distant dream, Eating’s a struggle, my regret's a relentless stream, Memories flash back, like shadows in the dark, Every bite's a reminder, every meal leaves a mark. Rebellious spirit, but trapped in my own cell, Fighting with demons, feelin' like I'm under a spell, This weight on my chest, can't shake it off, Tryna find redemption, but I feel so lost. Caught in the cycle, the guilt won't let go, Searching for a way out, but it’s hard to show, I wear my scars proud, but inside I bleed, Learned the hard way, now I'm planting the seed.