Old Damn Door

I just wanna go home,I dont want to live this life yeah I want you to know I don’t wanna get high like I did before But it’s harder every night when I’m alone Hearing the devil knocking at my door sayin’ “just one more” Feel it deep in my soul, it’s takin’ control I dont feel whole inside with Every hit, every bowl I smoked i choked I’m stuck in a rut I can’t outgrow From the time I wake up ‘til I lay down broke I been chasin’ that ghost through a cloud of smoke Man I used to be somebody, I had hope Now I’m barely hangin’ on at the end of my rope [Verse 2] I remember them days, love and laughter nothing else mattered until that was shattered all the peices scattered I started burnin’ bridges faster I’m pickin’ up pieces from the disaster Memories gone like they got stole Like a thief in the dark took my soul Hit me hard, yeah it took its toll Left me out in cold with a heart burning full of coal And it hurt like hell but I couldnt let go until there wasnt anything left to hold on too its all my fault im the one to blame I’m the one who let it all pass me by i Did myself and the ones I love dirty i was Feedin’ that pain while the devil stayed thirsty [Chorus] I just wanna go home tonight Lay my head down and close my eyes No more runnin’, no more highs Just some peace in these bloodshot eyes Lord knows I’ve walked that line Between redemption and losin’ my mind If I’m gonna keep on keeping on , I gotta fight These demons in the dead of night [Verse 3] Took everything that I worked for hard Tore it down, left emotional scars Watched me fall down and ripped me apart Like a slow burn breakin’ a man’s heart Cut me deep like a surgeons blade Left reminders of everywhere I’ve been Now I’m starin’ at the mess I made Tryna dig my way outta this grave What the hell was I tryin’ to prove? Who was I tryin’ to be Ain’t nobody left in this place It’s me and these boots, I gotta change my ways [Bridge – stripped / emotional] I ain’t hurtin’ nobody but me no more So I’m kickin’ down that old damn door Yeah it’s time I settle the score… [Final Chorus – bigger / gritty] I just wanna go home tonight Make it outta this endless fight Put them demons in the ground Before they drag me down Yeah I’ve lost damn near everything But I still got a soul to save So I’m goin’ to war with the hell I made And I ain’t goin’ to my grave that way I wasnt made that way