Battlefield

Inside of my mind there is a war going on and I'm constantly at battle with myself my mind it is a battlefield I dont know how much time I have left till the clock stops ticking but one day its all gonna stop and it will all just begin to fade away and it will all be a memory full of misery and pain if I dont change my ways but today is not the day I dont know if that day )will ever come my way it may just stay the same I don't know what else to do or say but I can't say anything at all I used to walk the same walk and talk the same talk that I am now but it's all over now like boom bang pow I was hell bound lost never to be found wondering in the abyss it was a moment like this a moment of bliss I found myself and unbound those chains that were holding me down Im free from all the pain and greif I had been carrying around with me Lost in the darkness the light couldn't be seen from the furthest reaches of this hell in my mind I dont like the dark or the silence I'm tired of fighting these demons that surround me I am beginning to losing my patience how do I ever escape this reality I dont know what it is waiting for me on the other side of this. I'm teetering on the edge of it all I'm getting tired physically and mentally and it feels as if my soul is trying to get rid of me I got this anxiety it's killing me silently I'm fighting these battles inside of my head and it destroying the ones I love instead cause I don't know how to express my emotions I don't know who I am anymore I'm running blind though this hell that I created for myself I'm losing lord give me you strength and your will so I can fulfill my destiny looking up into the sky asking God why he keeps on testing me I can't keep myself out of my mind I feel like I'm floating away on a cloud right now and idk if I'm gonna make it out in time to be able to live my life and love those that I have left behind just look in my eyes you will see what it is that you despise in me it was you and only you that could set me free from everything that made me happy how can someone that says that they love you can just up and split and not give a shit about you or any of it. yeah that's it it's me k to the d o double G I'm hitting the streets when you hear that beat just know that was me blasting off in my rocket ship the deeper I go the further I get away from you and that boo boo face i don't know what it really is and what it really isn't but I am trapped I t this prison in my mind and I can't take it cause the good and the bad are intertwined combined to make one of each other together forever so if you want some come and get it it won't last forever and I promise you this right now I can