Outta My Mind”

Outta My Mind” I’m running outta time, wish I had a little more of it I like it, I love it, yeah I wanted all of it But I can’t get right, so I stay outta sight Outta mind, outta line, lost somewhere in the night I’m about to say fuck it, you can take it, shove it I don’t want none of it If you think I’m bluffin’, keep it up— you’ll see what it really is ‘Cause deep down, you already know what you did These scars I’m carryin’ cut way deeper Life’s been suckin’ me dry like a skeeter I’m on the edge of the world, feel it teeter Spinnin’ in circles like a damn globe-trotter Somebody go and get me a doctor Got a feelin’ this time I’ll fall even harder You ain’t fix me—you turned me to a monster Prayin’ to God, “Can I even love her?” But how can I love her if I can’t trust her? Why do I still wanna touch her, hold her, kiss her? Why can’t I shake it, why can’t I leave? Why do I still wanna believe? I ain’t no saint, never claimed to be This life I live ain’t for the weak Should’ve quit while I was ahead, but it’s been like this since the start of me Every night I stare at the stars pretend I’m driftin’ off to Mars Tryna escape these broken parts, but they follow me wherever you are I wish someone’d put me out my misery ‘Cause our love’s just faded into history So give me death or give me liberty— ain’t nothin’ left of you and me Feels like a Mack truck hit me twice Backed it up just to take my life That’s just how it goes sometimes— now my whole damn world don’t spin right Maybe I’ll wake up, it’s all a dream But I roll over—still empty sheets You ain’t next to me anymore, but I know you’re layin’ next to somebody That gut-punch feelin’ when I see you ride by Never thought I’d say goodbye “Till death do us part”—we lied Now it’s just me and this lonely night I thought we’d be floatin’ up on a cloud Now I’m drownin’ in silence, alone right now Drownin’ tomorrow in whatever I found Tryna numb what I can’t figure out Stay high in this habitat Kickin’ back but I’m way off track Livin’ life one day at a time But I still can’t get you off my mind You been runnin’ through it night and day Ain’t been the same since you walked away I don’t know what it is you gave me But it’s drivin’ me crazy—daily 24/7 lately Still can’t believe you hate me I been missin’ you like crazy Hopin’ you still feel the same, maybe im trapped in this hell that I created for myself and I dont know why I even try whrmbi know you are out there running around with another guy like it hurts but I cant cry it feels as if a part of me has died this death 1 million times and im gonna make it million and 1