down and beaten while my head retreaten

my mind has been damaged and ravaged for years so much so that I manage to walk around like I ain't got no fears yet always on the verge of shedding so many tears and my heart is a misguided bruised and beaten, t cooked and eaten but still remains to continue its bleeding after all of thisn speeding there is something more I be needing so now I'm on the floor knneeling looking up at the ceiling looking to find his healing! because im lost ever since I can remember I've been been playing in sin, displaying this grin constantly taking advantageMy mind’s been damaged, ravaged for years, Still I walk around like I got no fears, But I'm always on the edge, holdin' back tears, Heart so bruised, misguided by gears— It’s been cooked, beaten, chewed and eaten, Still it bleeds, steady, never retreatin'. After all this speedin', my soul still pleadin’, Down on the floor, hands high — I’m kneelin’. Lookin' to the ceiling, prayin’ for healin’, Tryna find somethin’ realer than what I’m feelin’. I’ve been lost since back in December— Or maybe forever... I just don’t remember. Playin’ in sin, with a grin on my face, Takin’ advantage like life’s a race— But this mask I wear’s just a disguise, Underneath, I’m screamin' with silent cries.