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#Iwouldrather #Iremember #Immadie I would rather die than do that again I would rather die than have you as a friend I would rather die than go through that again I would rather die before letting you in Imma die at 14 there ain't no doubt about it Since 13 I ain't had a father and Imma die without it When I was 12 I started cutting my arm and around it When I was 11 I attempted suicide and found that These roses are red these violets are blue I think that I'm dead I think you are too I been layin in my bed I been thinking about you I been sittin in the shed I been waiting for the cue You gonna text me back that's a god damn lie Hang from the ceiling gotta use a tie Double down on those fucking lies I battle with that too but at least I fuckin try To get rid of all of my toxic traits Treated people horribly when I went on dates These are actions of my dad that I cannot face Because I know that it will just make me displaced I used to guilt trip and I felt ashamed When I was 12 all I wanted was fame But in reality it was love I needed to attain I needed love like it was loot in a game I would rather die than do that again I would rather die than have you as a friend I would rather die than go through that again I would rather die before letting you in Imma die at 14 there ain't no doubt about it Since 13 I ain't had a father and Imma die without it When I was 12 I started cutting my arm and around it When I was 11 I attempted suicide and found that Just because you're happy doesn't mean that I am I was an object press E to interact with item I'm done not being able to love bitch I am Done being alive my demons I fight em I cope with my depression by drinking and smoking I don't wanna live I'm loadin the gun I'm holding Cock it back and let it bang bitch I been hoping That you would love me back but now I'm forever fuckin broken