symptomatic BPD

I'm exhausted with this life,I mean shit got me tight. got me looking for a remedy to fix this strife. bpd is a blight and there's no end in sight. talking therapies and meds you say doc? yeah right.. you memorized from studying,I learned from life. this meant everything I learned I had to learn twice. my copeing strategies were all maladaptive. when that rage hit i,d just slice and get trapped in it. got diagnosed at age twenty seven. wanted to fall asleep and just acend to heaven. I was on a pych ward,fasting was obsession. doctors can't fix me but it's they're fuckin profession. bulimia was added to my prognosis. I hate all this motherfucking psychoneurosis. sometimes I freak balls and ill hit a psychosis. I swear man this one time I thought I was moses.. and thats no joke man,I really fuckin swear it. men's mental health matters,we gotta raise awareness. if you fuck about with it you'll become restless and reckless. we lose too many men to that infinite necklace. adhd became ptsd which quickly morphed into this demon bpd. if you know me it's plain to see. stemmed from trauma others couldn't conceive. you ever drift into a dissociation? lose all fucking time like your brains on vacation? ever done it on a train and missed your destination? I have..just sitting there with no explanation. I'm like an alien,a human being emulator. I don't have any type of emotional regulator. I go from zero to one hundred faster than an escalator. my mind doesn't like me..yeah..but hes a fuckin traitor #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #BPDAwareness #BPDWarrior #MentalHealthMatters #EndTheStigma #BPDRecovery #MentalHealthAwareness #StopTheStigma #BPDCommunity #BorderlineAwareness